Asthma is a lot of things. It's an annoyance. It's never easy to go somewhere. Even just an afternoon at a friend's house requires making sure that we have medication and spacers. To go on vacation requires more medication and nebulizer machines. If we're flying, it requires notes and prescriptions from the doctor.
School requires different medication and different spacers. More notes from doctors. Directions on how to handle flares. What to do and sometimes, more importantly, what NOT to do.Asthma is being on a first-name basis with the local pharmacist. It's having pharmacy employees know you before you even ask for medication you're looking for. Asthma is limiting. It stops my daughter from experiencing life like other children. Not always because she physically can't do something, though that does happen, but often because she's AFRAID she won't be able to breathe. Asthma is fear. Not just my daughter's, but mine as well. Fear of the unknown. Fear of the known. Fear when she's coughing and can't stop. . . . then the fear when she DOES stop. Fear of the effects of the medication that she needs to keep breathing. Asthma is loneliness. People don't get it. They don't understand what it is to be afraid. They don't see what goes on at night, when the coughing won't stop and I'm afraid to go to sleep.Asthma is many things. One thing it is NOT is "just asthma." -- by Sara of Perfect ImperfectionAsthma is living life with Jekyll and Hyde lungs.
When things are good, you're almost normal. You can breathe well, exercise, work, play, and so on. You have to take your medication every morning and night, but by and large you can do whatever you want to.
Unless Mr. Hyde comes out.
You may or may not have warning that Mr. Hyde is coming. If you have warning, you have time to get to a doctor and talk to them about it, and hopefully prevent Mr. Hyde from coming out at all. You even have medicine that can temporarily prevent him from coming out ("rescue" inhalers). But if you don't deal with it, he will come out, and sometimes you have no warning at all.
Imagine that Mr Hyde is only detectable by voice to people other than yourself. His voice is usually a wheeze. If you're unlucky enough to not be a wheezer, people don't realize he's there, even as you cough and cough and cough and never feel like you're getting enough air. To those people who can't feel what he does, if he's not talking, he's not there. Mr Jekyll must be present. They say that your problem is in your head, and that because you're anxious, you must have an anxiety problem... never mind that as they tell you this, Mr Hyde is having a merry time wrecking your lungs and you're coughing and coughing and coughing. Your chest might hurt from irritation, or you might pull a muscle. I've bruised ribs with my asthma alone. Your chest feels like someone tied something tightly around it and you can't seem to breathe in enough. Your lungs burn because you can't exchange air well, and all the while, people might be telling you that getting upset because you feel like you're suffocating means that you have an anxiety problem.
You'll learn to hate the question, "Do you think it might be anxiety?" and all its variants, because no matter how many times you try to explain it, they never understand that feeling like you're suffocating on nothing would make anyone anxious, and it's a logical reaction to not being able to breathe.
Most of the time, you can keep Mr Hyde at bay. Most of the rest of the time, you can force him away with your rescue medicine. Sometimes, though, the rescue medicine doesn't work. Then you have to go the the emergency room, and put up with all the hated questions all over again, and if you're really unlucky or your asthma attack is really bad, you can end up hospitalized, on a ventilator, or even dead.
To prevent that, you take medicine every day. I take six to maintain my lungs, I also have my rescue medication just in case he gets out. You absorb the cost of your medicines, even if you're a student living far below the poverty line but ineligible for financial assistance because you're a student, and they cost you half your paycheck each month because living on Mr. Noodles and vitamin pills is better than not being able to breathe. If you're a student that's lucky enough to have insurance, you spend far too much time fighting with the insurance company every time your doctor wants to change your medications, and though you might be able to afford to eat real food now, you still can't ever go out, unless you're dumb enough to have a choice between a night out and breathing and decide that the night out is worth it.
And then there's the social side of it. Your relatives, friends and coworkers are likely split three ways between those who are supportive and understanding, those who really don't care one way or the other, and those who think you're a hypochondriac or under the sway of a Big Pharma conspiracy or whatever else have you. The first group are good but overprotective - they might drive you crazy with the well-intentioned nagging. The middle can take or leave you and you them. The final group will drive you crazy with well-intentioned but utterly off-the-mark advice, ranging from, "You just need to exercise more and stop those drugs and you'll be fine!" to "Try this snake oil that someone with absolutely no medical training but a nice-sounding pitch sold me the other day!"
A lot of them just simply don't get it. You look like you're fine, so you must be fine, right? I don't resent them for it: I wish everyone had the good fortune to have no idea what it's like; to not get it. Sometimes it gets frustrating because they're trying to relate and they can't, and you're trying to explain and you can't. Sometimes it's exhausting to try to function while Mr Hyde is at play. Sometimes it gets lonely when you just want to talk with someone who gets what it's like when Mr. Hyde comes out.
Sometimes, it makes you realize what great friends you have, when they cover your work for you at literally three minutes notice. It makes you treasure the things that those who always breathe well take for granted: Running, jumping, climbing trees, taking part in a martial arts class, and so on. It makes you realize how bad things can be, but also how good they can be.
Life with asthma is life. With Jekyll and Hyde lungs.
-- by Asthma Mom reader Sarah
Sam Linton flared for almost four hours at Offerton high school in Britain, and no one called an ambulance.
One teacher, Jan Ford, made him sit in the hall, struggling to breathe, despite the red alert attached to his name.
By the time his mother reached the school, he was gray and his lips were blue.
He died in the hospital two hours later.
He was 11 years-old.
Asthma is more complicated than it seems, and media portrayal of it often undercuts the seriousness.
It's never "just asthma."
This collection of stories and images will hopefully set the record straight.